A Big Day

For me, today is a milestone in my journey. For those of you who know, on December 8, 2004, I officially gave up self-injury. Only with the help of God and nothing else. Only when I was able to hand it over fully to Him was I able to overcome the addiction. Well, today (November 8) is my 11-month anniversary! I know it seems like a strange number, but that's one month away from a year! I plan on celebrating hard when I reach a year, because this has been the hardest road I have ever trod. But I'm here today with a smile on my face, blogging about the joy I feel because God is amazing! Thanks everybody who have prayed for me and helped me come to this point in life.
I don't know how many of you know about the poem I recently got published in an anthology entitled "The Best Poets of 2005." With a publication date of Summer 2006. The poem I wrote is about the battle and the overcoming of my addiction with cutting, and I thought I would include it for you:

Forever Gone

By Chrissy M. Dennis

The sins of my past cling tight to me
Memories of scars forever near
Always taunting, haunting me
Will I live forever in darkness and fear?

Visions of razors, sharp objects and blood
Swimming around in my head
Hard to let go of that way of life
To forget all the tears that I’ve shed

Only until I gave it to God
Could I truly and wholly be free
So there I stood on the shore of a beach
Threw my last razor blade into the sea

Almost a year since I cut my last cut
The scars slowly continue to fade
It was only because I trusted in God
That I could finally let go of the blade

Forgiven by God for the sins of my past
Pulled out from the pits of despair
I know I can get through anything

Because my Father is always there

Until next time:

CHRISSY