So Lent Begins

So today I said goodbye.

That's right, I have decided to once again give up french fries for lent.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

I realize it's going to be really hard, but what about what Jesus did? That's what I came to realize as I've been trying to figure out what to give up. At first I thought about computer games, but that wouldn't be too hard, since lately I haven't been playing them all that much. French fries, however, well, at least that way, I would be thinking about how hard it was. I mean, Jesus went 40 days without food or water, I should be able to give up french fries for 40 days. It will be difficult, but I think it will teach me discipline and also that I don't need them, or anything else if I have Christ on my side. So yeah, it should be interesting. So good luck to all of you who are doing lent. Sorry Michelle, I won't take your suggestion. I really don't think I can give up sex for 40 days.

CHRISSY - officially french-fry-free

In A Rut

Okay so I've been in a depressed rut for the last week and it's not cool. I break down at the drop of a hat. The one time I broke down crying was when I was drinking pop and I had a little gas bubble go up my nose and I broke down crying for like 20 minutes. I'm up and down like a roller coaster and it's driving me insane. I don't really know what's wrong, but I have a few ideas, but I'd really appreciate it if anyone who reads this blog would keep me in their prayers. I know this will pass, but you know, it still sucks to be in the moment.
CHRISSY

Trapped Minds

I think I've already mentioned so many posts ago that I finished writing my second major novel, "Trapped Minds." I'm actually working on editing it now so I can have it finished before I finish school. That's my goal - hey I accomplished the last goal I had. (Finished writing it before I started school). Anyways, now I am having two dilemmas. First, I can't decide which book cover to use. Here are the options. Please give me your opinions:






I don't quite know if I'm fond of the idea of having my picture on the book cover, as well as some actress I know nothing about, but I like the Panther (there's a character who goes by the codename "Panther" in my book)





You can't really see it, but when this is enlarged, there is a very faded Panther behind all the black. It's to symbolize the fact that you never see him and the mystery his character holds.











Again, you see a panther against the backdrop of the laboratory where the girls are being held.












So I don't know yet.
My other dilemma is that because I am biasedly opinionated, I would love to have some people read my story as I edit it so that they can tell me if it needs to be more descriptive, or if it's too tacky at points, or if there isn't enough dialogue, or if something is inconsistent. Anyway, if you're interested, let me know and I'll email you chapter by chapter as I go along. For a taste, here is my Prologue:

An old man’s eyes bore deeply into a faded brown photograph that was nearly as aged as he was. The picture was torn around the edges, and folded down the middle, a result of being kept in his wallet over the years. It was the only connection to his past. The last photo he had to remember them by. The brave young girls who had lost their lives; the worn out old man had spent infinite sleepless nights blaming himself for this. The beautiful eyes haunted him day by day, pleading for an answer, a solution, a second chance.

A single tear rolled down his scarred cheek and he could feel his throat closing up. The overwhelming flow of emotions had erupted once again. He could not contain himself, not for anything. The girls in the photograph had been his whole life, once upon a time. The link to those days was gone now.

Yet there was something deep inside the old man’s heart that would never accept their deaths.

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I realize it's not all that informative, but that's the point. You don't really come back to that chapter until near the end of the story where you're (supposed to) go "aaaaaaaaaaaaah, I get it!"
Anyway, bye
CHRISSY

Noticing Some Changes

Okay so as I've been going through the last week, trying to get my busy workload worked out (I had 2 tests this week, plus an essay due), I noticed I have changed a lot since last year, or even last semester. First off, for my first test, I noticed I was slightly nervous, but when I read a verse from the Bible, it helped. It was along the lines of "He is my light and my saviour, why should I be afraid?" So that calmed be down greatly.

My test on Tuesday, I was freaking out, because the material was brutally hard and I left that test, knowing I didn't do too well. My reaction though? "Oh well, it's only a test. In the long run, one test won't make a difference. I'll do better next time." I WAS COMPLETELY CALM ABOUT IT! That's not really like me; weird. I figure a test isn't going to matter in eternity, so why should I worry about it?

Then for my essay, I asked Brad and Kari to proofread it and when Brad was proofreading it, he said to me "I'm editing this in the same way I edit everybody else's at work." I realized in that moment that previous times he had edited my work, I was bitter and angry, because I wasn't a huge fan of criticism, even constructive criticism. So anyway, I told him to hack it apart, because I wanted to find the mistakes. When I checked it later, I was happy to see all the markings on the paper, and I learned from my mistakes and found myself saying "Oh yeah, he's right. I guess I could have supported that better." Same with Kari's editing. (Sorry Brad for in the past getting upset about the editing. You have a real talent).

So that was my revelation for the week. I'm growing up. Yay. Let's see how much more I continue to grow.

CHRISSY

The Naivity of the Social Isolate

Who am I referring to in the title? Me, of course. The one who has no social life whatsoever and is so blinded by life that she's naive to what is happening. I'm not bitter, really I'm not, I just find that the things that normal people catch, I find breezing by over my head.

This is what happened: And you have my permission to laugh, because it is a funny story. Embarrassing, but definitely funny.

So on Saturday, I had my friend Lindsey come over and we went to get dinner at a sub store. On our way back to my house, we stopped at a convinient store to get some snacks for later. The cashier was a young male, and a very smooth talker. He had been talking to us the whole time, about the dinner we just bought, about the snacks I just bought, everything.

As he cashed me out, the total came up.

$9.05.

"$9.05 eh? What's the rest of the number?" He asked. I looked at him confused and shrugged.

"I don't know." I replied, and paid him. I was surprised he was quiet for the rest of the time. I didn't know why.

As Lindsey and I left, she turned to me and asked, "You really don't get out much, do you?" I wondered what she was talking about and she finally had to explain to me that the young man was asking for my phone number, and I shot him down. I tried to argue that wasn't what he was doing - I mean I thought he was just pointing out that 905 happens to be the first 3 digits of any phone number and heck, what a coincidence that my total happened to be that.

So then I felt bad (not like I would have given him my number) but still, I could have been nicer about it, and would have been, had I known what he was talking about.

I think from this we can conclude that Chrissy really needs to go on a date and resocialize herself with the male species before something like this happens again, only worse and possibly more embarrassing. I will never live down the "905" story.

CHRISSY

Loony Luna

Hey good news to all you Harry Potter fans. They have released the names and photos of the actors who are playing the roles in the 5th Harry Potter film to be released in 2007. First is Luna Lovegood, a 4th year Ravenclaw student who is a little loopy. She befriends Harry (somewhat) and this is her:



Evanna Lynch - 14 year old Irish actress.










Then there's Professor Umbridge, the close-to-evil professor who wants nothing more than to get rid of Dumbledore and change Hogwarts. She is known for her annoying clearing of her throat.

Imelda Staunton
(personally, I don't think she looks quite like I imagined Umbridge, but who knows, she may surprise me).









The lovely Tonks, known for her changing hairstyle. She is one of my favourite characters who later falls in love with a well-loved character.



Natalia Tena










Also joining the cast are George Harris as Kingsley Shacklebolt, and Robbie Jarvis as the young James Potter (seen through Snape's memory in the pensieve).
Anyway, I've probably bored most of you who aren't Harry Potter fans, but I'm thrilled.
Update on my life so you aren't completely bored: I have two tests this week (just finished one an hour ago, did very well I think) and I have one tomorrow, plus youth group. I have a doctor's appointment for my ear on Wednesday and my essay is due on Thursday. Luckily, this is my last week at school, and next week I have a week off for Reading Week.
See you all soon,
God bless
CHRISSY