Noticing Some Changes

Okay so as I've been going through the last week, trying to get my busy workload worked out (I had 2 tests this week, plus an essay due), I noticed I have changed a lot since last year, or even last semester. First off, for my first test, I noticed I was slightly nervous, but when I read a verse from the Bible, it helped. It was along the lines of "He is my light and my saviour, why should I be afraid?" So that calmed be down greatly.

My test on Tuesday, I was freaking out, because the material was brutally hard and I left that test, knowing I didn't do too well. My reaction though? "Oh well, it's only a test. In the long run, one test won't make a difference. I'll do better next time." I WAS COMPLETELY CALM ABOUT IT! That's not really like me; weird. I figure a test isn't going to matter in eternity, so why should I worry about it?

Then for my essay, I asked Brad and Kari to proofread it and when Brad was proofreading it, he said to me "I'm editing this in the same way I edit everybody else's at work." I realized in that moment that previous times he had edited my work, I was bitter and angry, because I wasn't a huge fan of criticism, even constructive criticism. So anyway, I told him to hack it apart, because I wanted to find the mistakes. When I checked it later, I was happy to see all the markings on the paper, and I learned from my mistakes and found myself saying "Oh yeah, he's right. I guess I could have supported that better." Same with Kari's editing. (Sorry Brad for in the past getting upset about the editing. You have a real talent).

So that was my revelation for the week. I'm growing up. Yay. Let's see how much more I continue to grow.

CHRISSY