Out By The Lake

On yesterday's date (January 8), a year ago, Kari took me down to this lake where I wanted to symbolically give cutting over to God forever. It was in this spot where I prayed for freedom and threw my razor blade into the lake. The weight was lifted from my shoulders.
So yesterday, Kari once again took me to the same place, just for closure, I guess. I'm not exactly sure why I wanted to go back to that place. (I call it Cutter's End). The place represents more to me than just giving up cutting. It represents friendship (with Kari), finding God more strongly in my life, trusting Him. It is a place that kind of reminds me of how much my life has changed since last year. Throwing the razor blade in the sea began for me a journey of self-discovery, and trusting more in God. Kari and I prayed together yesterday, as the freezing cold wind blew against us, but it was great. It gave me a lot of closure, feeling very strongly that I knew I never wanted to walk down that road again.
I know it's just a place, and I know I can experience God everywhere I go. As a writer, I guess I see Cutter's End as more than just a place. It's a special place to me, and everytime I drive past it, I'm reminded of how much God has helped me through the past year and how it wouldn't have been possible without Him. I know this all the time, no matter where I am, but Cutter's End was the place where it started to happen. Praise God for helping me through all of this and being the Savior of my soul.
CHRISSY